IT’S TIME TO SLEEP, I LOVE YOU
Wow! Since we switched to the toddler bed he has gone to bed without work 1 time. It is 1140pm and he is still coming out of his bed and i am still putting him back and repeating the same thing ‘It’s time to go to sleep, i love you, Seger’. It’s been 2 hrs of this. I have to pep talk myself every night because i am so exhausted during this and if i get anxious he will feel it. I fucked it up a few times. Since we started the toddler bed we went camping in Georgia, we had a couple sleep overs and One time this week i went to sleep in between a break and he came in and snuggled up and i never knew. Basically, every morning between 4-7 he comes in. So far i have gone in 3x since i started writing this. Tonight he pulled out some new cards now (5x now 6) i think he just fell asleep as i put him down the last time because his breath got heavy as he hit the bed. Anyway, tonight, one of the things he did after an hour of trying to come out is he came out without his diaper. How fucking brilliant is that? He figured out a way to get me to stay in there more than my one line. Second thing he did that blew my mind is called me Super Mom. We watched an old version of Spider Man (waking up with fever means TV all day). Spidey has a friend named Fire Woman and for some reason every time Seger sees a princess or a female super hero he says Mama. Pretty rad, huh? Well, today, when he said ‘Mama’ i said ‘Super Mom’. Now he pulled it out as a tool to get out of bed an hour and half after trying everything else. The worst is when i hear his feet walking towards the door and i open it and he falls to the floor and giggles. How the hell am i supposed to keep a straight face? It’s serious, though. He needs to learn to sleep in his room. Sleep is a tool that we all need to get good at and if i don’t teach him, he’ll be fucked like me. I can’t help but wonder if i thought he was really good at going to sleep when he was in the crib but he was just laying there being awesome and up the whole time.