IT’S TIME TO SLEEP, I LOVE YOU
Wow! Since we switched to the toddler bed he has gone to bed without work 1 time. It is 1140pm and he is still coming out of his bed and i am still putting him back and repeating the same thing ‘It’s time to go to sleep, i love you, Seger’. It’s been 2 hrs of this. I have to pep talk myself every night because i am so exhausted during this and if i get anxious he will feel it. I fucked it up a few times. Since we started the toddler bed we went camping in Georgia, we had a couple sleep overs and One time this week i went to sleep in between a break and he came in and snuggled up and i never knew. Basically, every morning between 4-7 he comes in. So far i have gone in 3x since i started writing this. Tonight he pulled out some new cards now (5x now 6) i think he just fell asleep as i put him down the last time because his breath got heavy as he hit the bed. Anyway, tonight, one of the things he did after an hour of trying to come out is he came out without his diaper. How fucking brilliant is that? He figured out a way to get me to stay in there more than my one line. Second thing he did that blew my mind is called me Super Mom. We watched an old version of Spider Man (waking up with fever means TV all day). Spidey has a friend named Fire Woman and for some reason every time Seger sees a princess or a female super hero he says Mama. Pretty rad, huh? Well, today, when he said ‘Mama’ i said ‘Super Mom’. Now he pulled it out as a tool to get out of bed an hour and half after trying everything else. The worst is when i hear his feet walking towards the door and i open it and he falls to the floor and giggles. How the hell am i supposed to keep a straight face? It’s serious, though. He needs to learn to sleep in his room. Sleep is a tool that we all need to get good at and if i don’t teach him, he’ll be fucked like me. I can’t help but wonder if i thought he was really good at going to sleep when he was in the crib but he was just laying there being awesome and up the whole time.
Hitting and Yelling
Nothing has hurt my feelings more than Seger hitting me. It happens almost every day. I do not have the energy to write about it now but i need guidance and patience to help him stop.
Today he yelled at his friend, Leo Hart, and it sounded like me when i have my serious-voice on. I didn’t like the way i sound.
IN JUST ONE DAY
Today, Seger and i were driving in the car to the hardware store and he sang the ABCs. He has never made is past D! Up until today he sang it like this ‘ABCD ABC’. And then today, BLAM! EVERY FREAKIN LETTER!?
Then, at dinner he winked at me. He turned his head all the way sideways as if he needed to blink so i leaned over to see the side of his face with the open eye and it was in fact a blink!
Lastly, he gets in bed with the book that is usually in the rotation and he is always requesting, GO DOGS GO, and starts reading it. As in the correct words for the page. i know he is not reading words but Jesus!
All in one day!
It’s been a difficult 2 weeks of transitioning to toddler bed. He’s doing so well and frankly, with friends support, I am too. I stayed consistent, calm and loving every time he got out and he went from 53x exiting the bed to 2. Tonight it was 2x and then an hour later he had this sad cry for me so I went To the door and could hear him walking. When I opened it he was sitting on the floor whimpering. I wanted so desperately to bring him to my room but its best to let him sleep in his own whenever he will. So I laid him down and to my surprise he was sleeping already. Like, the whole time I’m pretty sure.